To the Satguru Teri Aarzoo - Teri Justajoo

                               To the Satguru

                      Teri Aarzoo - Teri Justajoo 
(I wrote this poem couple of months after Baba Hardev Singh ji's USA tour in 2015)

Kabhi Kabhi main tanahaa baitha 

Teri tasveer nihaartaa hoon 

Man hi man pukaartaa hoon

Tujhe dil me utaarta hoon 

Tera har rang - 
har roop chitaartaa hoon 

Teri baaten vichaartaa hoon 

Aur dil me uthati hai ye aarzoo 

ki tera saath mil jaaye

Tere saath meri zindagi ki shaam dhal jaaye 

Tere saath baithun - tere saath khaaun 

Jahaan bhi tu jaaye, tere saath jaaun

Tere sang chaloon, tere sang hansoon 

Chhod apna des, tere sang basoon

Tere saath Ghoomun - Tere qadam choomun 

Dekhun teri soorat, teri muskuraahat

Suntaa rahoon tere qadmon ki aahat 

Rakhvaa loon main sar pay kabhi apane teraa haath

Khichvaa loon main sainkdon hi photo tere saath

Magar phir ye khyaal aata hai 

ki ye sab kuchh paakar bhi

Kya mai tujhko paa loonga ? 

Nahin ......

Kyonki tu ye sab to nahin hai

Ye baaten jism ki baaten hain

Aur tu jism to nahin hai

Aur agar kahin aesa bhi ho ......

ki Tu bhi karay mujhko kabhi yaad

Karni na paday mujhay kabhi koi faryaad 

Khud hi tu lay ke chalay mujhko apanay saath 

Rakh day kabhi pyaar say kandhe pay meray haath 

Kabhi muskura kay tu bulaa lay apnay paas

Honay na paaye kabhi judaayi ka aehsaas 

Teri baaton me kabhi - Mera bhi zikar ho 

Mai kaisa hoon, kahaan hoon - Tujhko ye fikar ho 

Poochh lay kisi say tu mera bhi kabhi haal 

Teray bhi zehan me kabhi ho meraa khyaal ......

Magar phir sochtaa hoon -
ki ye sab kuchh ho bhi jaaye agar

To kya Tu mera - aur mai tera ho jaaunga?

Shayed nahin .......

Kyonki tu ye sab bhi to nahin hai

Ye baaten jismo-dil ki baaten hain

magar tu - jismo-dil bhi to nahin hai

Aur ye sab kuchh honay par bhi

Aarzooen, Tamanaayen - Meri hasraten

Kabhi pyaar ka aehsaas - kabhi nafraten 

Dilo-dimaagh me chhaai huyi qadoorten

Hasad ki aag me jalti huyi vo pinahaa soorten

Khatm ho jaayengi kya?

Mit jaayengi kya  ?

Ye be-sabari, ye maghroori khatm ho paayegi kya ?

Aur meri hasti teri hasti me mil jaayegi kya ?

Mujhe yaad hai - kabhi tunay kahaa tha: 

"Tu kisko dhoondtaa hai? 
                                Kiski hai justajoo?

Tu mujh me hai - main tujh me hoon

                  Tu mai hai -  Main hoon tu"

Aur agar ye sach hai -

to mujhe teri justajoo kyon hain?

Agar hum ek hain - to dekhnay me do kyon hain? 

Saath hote huye bhi tu mujhe lagataa door hai

Ye meri aakhon ka hai qasoor?

                                              Ya dil ka qasoor hai ?

Magar jab gaur se dekha - to raaz ye khulaa

Aur Haqeeqat ka aakhir - pataa ye chalaa

Ki qasoor kisi ka nahin - Mai khud hi kho gayaa tha 

Gafalat ke neend may hee, be-khabar so gayaa tha 

Aur , ye raasta bhi maine Khud hi to chunaa tha

Ye jaal hasraton ka - Khud hi to bunaa tha

Jo divaaren banaayin thin hifaazat ki khaatir

Unhi me reh gyaa tha mai qaid ho ke aakhir

Isiliye to khatm na ho paayi justajoo

Na poori ho saki tujhe paane ki aarzoo

Haan .....

Magar ye hasarat poori ho to sakti hai

Zehaanat ki qaid se Rihaayi ho to sakti hai

Teri hasti me meri hasti - kho to sakti hai 

Meri zaat, teri zaat say - ik ho to sakti hai

Magar na jaane ye sab kab hoga?

Kabhi hoga bhi - ya nahin hoga 

Par itnaa jaanata hoon khatm ho sakti hai justajoo

Agar vo yaad rahe mujhko teri pehali guftagoo

Jab tune ye kahaa tha .......

"Tu mujh me hai main tujh me hoon

   Tu mai hai - Main hoon tu "

Jismon ki qaid say - jab oopar uth jaata hoon me

Tab teri is baat ka matlab samajh paata hoon me

Aur tab achaanak hi mujhe 
yoon mehsoos hota hai 

ki mai tujh me hoon - Tu mujh me hai 

Tu sab me hai - sab tujh me hai 

Sab Tu hi hai -  Sab Tu hi hai 

Sab Tu hi hai - Bus Tu hi hai

     'Rajan Sachdeva'

       (November 10, 2015)

Justaju .....         Search

Tanhaa ......        Alone

Hasaraten ........ Desires

Qadoorten ......   Animosities

Hasad  ............... Jealousy 

Pinhaa ..........      Hidden

Maghroori ........ Ego

Zehaanat .....      Thoughts / Ideology 

Zaat  ..............  Pesonality / Being 

Guftagoo ....     Conversation